SO OMG HEY , i have written on this in a while so i think this is going to be a pretty long one! ive been going through quite a lot lately , i guess you could say its pretty bad. I wad diagnosed with 3 degree depression and 3rd degree anxiety. Its hard for me to deal with things when i worry about that. Pretty much it makes things just that much worse for me. Everything hurts me more than everyone else thinks that it does. But moving on , me and adrean dont talk .. but theres this guy, i used to talk to him alot .. i miss him. For some reason a lot. Its kinda bad. Because i miss everything about him. I really shouldn’t miss him , because i don’t think he misses me one bit. It sucks SO bad , because one person that i talked to all the time became someone i USED to know. I guess you could say we told eachother a lot .. more than i should’ve told him , due to the fact that i find it way to hard to trust people these days. I don’t exactly know why I miss him so much it could be that i became we too comfortable around him it could be a lot. He’s sucha asshole to. But some reason i go for all the assholes .. couldnt even tell ya why. But i guess i want everything to work out for me just once.. and a guy to WANT me.
i just wanna be okay again
Im happy to say shes officially back. My friken best friend OMG !!! like finally. Were officially as close as we were before , thank the lord , i missed her. I love her so much no one gets it ! I love all my bestfriends ! i still at somepoints feel like the outcast. But everyone gets that ! im glad that i have my friends still , even though some of us have drifted apart i know there still there no matter what, thank you my loves.. muah xox. and ps- chickawa forever.
